It’s been a while.

It hasn’t been a while since I logged in. I have about 45 drafts sitting around. It’s been a while since I actually finished writing and actually posted something.

So let’s see what life has thrown at me.

1. My husband’s last day at his job he has had for six years is Thursday.

2. I had such a bad sinus infection I missed three days of work and might have to have surgery in six months.

3. I have to magically come up with the $800 for daycare April 1 and our loans won’t come in till at least April 12.

4. I have come to realize the friends I had before having a child have all but disappeared.

So where does this leave me. I am so stress about not having the money for bills that I can’t sleep at night. I’m living off of coffee and energy drinks. I have no one that I can sit down and talk to besides my two year old and my husband who happen to be the two people I live with so go figure. My house looks like a disaster area (not really but I have OCD so to me it does). I’ll probably write more now since this is pretty much the only way I have to get how I’m feeling out before it consumes me and I become depressed. I will do everything in my power before I let that happen and put my daughter and Husband threw that.